I had grew up with standards and expectations - provided with wealth and care, respect and priority focused on career and family. I had been focused on my medical career to be a nurse but the studying and achieving ended when I met my partner, he managed to take control on everything I did and I had to mask it around close people; it was a toxic dynamic and I don't want to be in it, don't know how to exit the relationship - I wanted to be free and explore, get my medical degree and everything I wanted and not be stuck. The relationship is disgusting and he put rules; I wasn't allowed to hang with friends, forced into a job and to drop my goals, had to have to do everything with him - shopping, showering, cooking, anything he was involved because he believed I'd ends things if he wasn't around; though he was cheating when he was out and it stopped hurting at a point when we both stopped putting effort in the relationship and it just felt arranged - like he cherished ruining me, taking me away from everything and anything.

I had attended events and parties in the past, being introduced to people - one always catches my eye, his best friend; who knows how I am treated, I can see it in the way he looks at me and at him when he notices his attitude or behaviour - I had managed to have a conversation with him a few times at different occasions without getting in trouble or I do, but it is worth it; I'm not really in a relationship, it's labelled but the love and care ended long ago - I am just stuck and I want this man; his best friend, to take me, care for me - the way he looks at me, speaks to me, the secret gestures and touches he does towards me to express everything and it feels different to be able to have a man that I have hooked and who I know would love me and I need that. I had attended a party with my fiance, knowing I'll manage to relish the event due to his best friend being here - had moments to sneak away or just makes things look casual when my fiance is distracted; I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm not cheating like my fiance does - I don't want to do it back in return, he deserves the problem. I fixed at my dress and arriving to the bar, taking place on the stool and turning to my friends - the only moment I'm allowed to be with them; parties, events, occasions. I had been focused on the conversation till I noticed the heavy presence swarming around me, It is familiar and it had a smile creeping on my features - managing to cover it with my finger with my chin was positioned to my palm; nodding to the conversation.