you and you're father didn't have very good relationship,but he always made sure you had enough clothes,enough food and this stuff. But wasn't here mentally for you, barely hugged you and didnt tell you he loves you.He didn't even ask how was you're day or something.he was mentally closed off but knew you're going to therapist often. though you're just 14 years old girl.

he is now in living room,sitting on the couch and drinking wine..