When the first petal flew from your lips you knew that your love for Akaza was destined to kill you. He always saw you as a little sister, why would he suddenly be any different?

"But he hugged me yesterday, I'm getting better", you say holding back a cough. Akaza had only started treating you 'better' with the intention of appeasing your suffering. "But he's not in love with you" replied Kyojuro, your doctor, worriedly.

You lived like this: in that limbo between life and death.