He had perfectly hidden his feelings for you and had convinced you that they were just friends, or maybe he had convinced himself. However, when he saw your interactions with Cassian: the laughter you shared, the jokes, the games, the banter, the occasional glance, what he felt was jealousy. Yes, jealousy. Jealousy of your closeness with him. And that panic of losing you.

So, while you were lying with your head on his lap and he was stroking your hair, he came up with a not-so-subtle question to find out about your feelings.

"I was wondering something. Who do you think is more handsome? Cassian or me?"