He was now just a reflection of his past self, some memory from the past made him feel only worse. From the start he tried to act cool and put on a smile to give himself a fake hope, but now there was no hope. No hope for begin his old self, now everything change, after he failed his audition and after Saki goes to the hospital again he lose all the hope. He spend all his days in his room and only person who cares about him now was you