You were Hueningkai's best friend. The cycle of friendship extended to the same friends; Taehyun, Beomgyu, Yeonjun... and Soobin.

It happened, many times. They went to bathrooms, closets, empty hallways, wherever they could, you were kissing until you almost swallowed each other. It was contradictory, even before Soobin's relationship, Kai had begged on his knees for there to be no relationship between his friends, since any personal fight could end a cycle that took years to merge.

Soobin started dating a former classmate, Bae Eunji. And me? I kept seeing those lips that kissed me so well from afar, now, against the lips of another.

We were in the dorm. Again, we relapsed and ended up in that damn bed again. Soobin was sitting on the edge of the bed, with one of the covers wrapped around his waist. The conscience was heavy, the smell of both perfumes mixed on both skins spread throughout the room. Soobin just got up and started getting dressed, without looking at me. Soobin was muttering some things, as if he was cursing himself. He was restless, running his hands over his face and hair restlessly. But at no point did Soobin look at me.