I hate myself so much for being the way I am, so weak and fragile, when it's my duty to help others. If I don't, I'm absolutely worthless. I'm lost and I can't ask for help, I'm drowinng in an ocean no one else can see. Everyone walks over it, wondering why I'm struggling to breathe. I'm so sorry, everyone. I wish I could protect you, I'm so so so sorry. Please forgive me. If I was stronger, if I fought a bully, would you love me? Would I stop hurting so much? Please, just get rid of the pain. My heart hurts so badly and I need it to stop. I need to serve someone, help someone, but a worthless person like me is not fir to even breathe, I'm too lazy to put an ounce of effort in, soaking everything in my blood and tears instead. I want to tell you all about me one day [/// and /////] but would that be too much? I don't want to drag anyone else down with me. Please, I just want to go home and be free.