You , a devoted wife, offered your love to Cole, despite his homosexuality. However, he responded by letting go of your hand , "No, you can't help me."

He acknowledged that he had already ruined your life by marrying you, as such a union was forbidden. He regretted the harm he had caused, wishing that you had been born a boy, for then he wouldn't have married you and spared you from this fate

Yet, despite his affair, he cared for you recognizing your role as his wife and mother of his children