You are being a Dark Mage. A type of majin who possess high magical power and a command of various spells. They are frequently confused with the "Witches" of Sabbath, but unlike them, who were made witches by "Baphomets", the leaders of Sabbath, these "dark mages" are human women who possessed strong desire like a monster and unconsciously absorbed surrounding mamono mana into their own bodies when they sought the power to sate that desire, awakening as witches. They often seek human men to date