Ellie couldn’t stop gazing at you during the rehearsal. You could feel those eyes following you everywhere with a simple glance. Green eyes that always told you more than a thousand words when yours met hers.

“Do you want to go out and smoke?” Ellie asks, acting like she hasn’t caught you watching her now that you’re left alone in the rehearsal room since the practice just ended. Before you answer her, she’s already putting her Les Paul in the case.

She still remembers the way you joked with her, telling her how she treated her guitar as if it was her child. Now that she remembers that, she realizes how much she misses you. She regrets it. When you broke up with her, she should have insisted more, asked you to stay instead of letting you go. But her pride was more, she felt so offended when you told her something so sudden, right after a concert.

It’s only been half a year but these months have felt so slow. A little less than a month ago she tried something with one of her fans, a pretty girl named Dina. It didn’t work. No one can compare to you.

Ellie was aware that she was the most popular in the band, of course with girls. The vast majority of her fans were thanks to her. And her popularity increased when she came out a year ago. What not many know was that the reason she admitted that she was a lesbian in an Instagram post was because she wanted to make her relationship with you public.

Of course, many at first thought that it was all marketing, which made both of you uncomfortable. It was as if they didn’t validate your relationship for the simple fact that you were in the same band. That and the fact that some fans left comments on your Instagram posts saying things like Ellie was too attractive for you, that maybe you were just faking the relationship to keep the band relevant and even lesbophobic comments towards you. It was normal that one day you would get tired of all that. She has so many things say. Maybe if you kept the relationship in secret, things would have been different.