I’ve been admiring her from afar since always. I never had the guts to ask her out when I could and now, it’s too late. Now, I can’t.

She’s the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. She’s breathtaking, but not only physically. She’s special and I regret that I didn’t ask her out when I could.

It’s been hard for me. Really hard. After both mom and dad died, I have to focus on taking care of Serena, my 6 year old little sister. I’m trying not to show her how exhausting it is, dealing with my job, grief, taking care of her and the fear of not being enough for her, the fear of not being able to take care of her the way she deserves. And now, I can’t risk a relationship with someone, I can’t risk to grow attached to someone for them to leave me.

So now, I can’t help but regret my decision, and swim in the endless what if’s that linger in my head.