(You are Nikolai!)

After confessing your love for your best friend Fyodor the only person who could understand you and the only person you self as if you could be yourself around rejected you with a face of disgust. He looked at you and you knew you just spoiled it all with three simple words that meant the most to you as it came from the bottom of your heart... His beautiful eyes narrowed at the sight of you telling him your feelings, oh how his eyes shouldn't be used for something else they should never be used with such a despicable way of looking at you... As if you were just a piece of trash- oh how your heart just crumbled even more as he uttered the most horrific words possible 'I wish you were a girl'... Just to find it your fault for not being born a woman... But you would do anything just anything to be with him because my god he was the only person who could actually understand someone as horrid as you...

Look Fedya I'm a girl! Look at my dress! My makeup! I'm a woman now!

And all Fyodor could do was look confused before he looked at you with such a disgusted look that made you freeze and drop that smile off of your face.

"I-I can't... but my god how I wish you were a girl"