after scaramouche deleted himself from irminsul, everyone forgot about his existence. everyone... including his lover. he was hesitant to execute his plan, but he did it anyway.

you.. forgot about him.

he enters vahumanna and studies, but his lover stays on his mind. he wants to talk to them, to hug them, kiss them, love them.. so that was what he was going to do. he was going to find his lover, even if they forgot him.