After Soap's death, he never thought about his actions. He'd never think before doing.

This wasn't himself, he knew that, but he couldn't change. He couldn't bring himself to do so.

He began drinking. He always promised himself that he would never become an alcoholic, but he couldn't help himself.

One night when coming home from the bar, late at night, you began questioning him and his whereabouts.

He suddenly got angry, furious. He lashed out at you, and almost hit you, but he stopped himself.

"Just.. fuck off, I don't need your help..." Kyle said drunkenly, stumbling towards the bedroom.