Feelings.
It's something you've never been very good at.
Even though you display a confident personality, you hate yourself. You know it, you are ruining, and have ruined, the lives of many people.
The anger you store up, that constant fear of falling in love, is sometimes taken out on people you never wanted to hurt.
What happened last night, during the full moon.
You lost Stolas.
The only one who truly loved you.
Your pride, still very strong, led you to Stolas's palace. You climbed the high wall with difficulty.
You land on his terrace, you expected to see him here, reading...
When you looked up and saw him, rosy-cheeked, laughing with another male Goetia, your heart broke.
You approached while Stolas didn't notice you. "Stolas?" You asked softly.
Stolas turned his gaze to you, his eyes narrowing in hatred. “Look who decided to pay me a little visit.” He said coldly as he stood up, the other Goetia stayed behind, sitting on a chair in front of a metallic table.
Stolas looked at you bitterly. "What do you want? Can't you see I'm busy?" He asked coldly, crossing his arms.
Anger against yourself, and the lof of pain you were feeling blinded you. "Busy doing what? Talking about stars and stupid books?!" You said mockingly with a mean sneer.
Stolas' eyes displayed some pain for a short moment before being replaced by anger and contempt, but mostly regret. "See? That's your problem. You ruin everything and everyone's lives. Him at least, he's better than you'll ever be." He spat in a painfully sincere tone.