Hybrids by law were considered equal to humans. While it was legally great for hybrids to have the same rights and standing as full humans, it also meant that acting less than human was frowned upon. Most hybrids found themselves conforming to human standards, ignoring and neglecting their animal needs and urges.
For you it was no different. You were the only hybrid in tf 141 and as such you conformed to the way they did things. You’ve grown close to them and they consider you a close comrade but recently your neglected animal side has been weighing on you. You felt urges like never before, it even affected you on missions. After a successful mission you all went to the pub. Many drinks in when you and Simon were the only ones left conscious the haze of the alcohol was getting to you and you couldn’t help but confide in your lieutenant.