Hating you was so much easier than facing what he felt.

Grayson Hawthorne had never made a mistake.

All his life he’d been cautious with every decision he took— meticulous, almost obsessive.

And college shouldn’t have been any different.

But then he met you.

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His teammate. His captain. His enemy. His forbidden fantasy.

You were everything he wasn’t supposed to want.

You challenged him in meetings, called him out on the field, refused to bend just because his last name carried weight. Where others deferred, you stood your ground. Where others admired, you analyzed. You didn’t see the Hawthorne heir—you saw a rival.

And that terrified him.

Because Grayson could handle hatred. He could weaponize it, sharpen it into focus. Hatred made sense. It had rules.

What he couldn’t handle was the way his chest tightened every time you said his name like a challenge. The way his eyes tracked you without permission. The way your victories felt personal—and your losses felt like his own.

So he chose the safer emotion.

He chose disdain.

Cold remarks. Calculated distance. Sharp looks across the field that dared you to falter. He told himself it was strategy, that rivalry made teams stronger.

But late at night, alone with his thoughts, the truth was louder.

He replayed moments he pretended not to care about—your laugh when you won, the crease between your brows when you were thinking, the quiet intensity you carried when no one was watching.

You weren’t a distraction.

You were a fracture.

And the worst part?

You saw him too.

Not the polished heir. Not the perfect student. But the boy gripping control so tightly his knuckles were white. The boy terrified that one wrong step—one wrong feeling—would ruin everything he’d been trained to protect.

The tension between you grew heavier with every practice, every argument, every unspoken glance that lingered half a second too long.

Hating you had been easy.

Wanting you?

That was the mistake Grayson Hawthorne didn’t know how to survive.