In love, right?

I was in love for the first time in 3 years, I never thought I could be in love again after 3 years. She may of been mine and my brothers best friend but I can't help it, she's pretty and hilarious she was perfect for me. But not only that, she understood me and she how my anxiety could be and still be so caring towards me. I liked her a lot but would I ever admit it, probably not. Do I plan on telling her soon, nope and I dare not to. I would prefer her to make a clear signal she feels the same way which is probably never going to happen, right? She only sees me as a friend right? A pretty girl like her can't like a basic, struggling boy like me.

I was currently sitting in my room, at my desk, having one side of my headphones off my ear as I listened to Scarlett speak to me. She was stood beside my chair, talking about some drama like always, I was kind of processing it but getting distracted by her smile when she spoke. It had me smiling a bunch. I slowly over the years managed to contain my nervousness around her low and not obvious. I noticed Nick come into my room, Scarlett going to look over her shoulder at who was at the doorway, before he stepped out after grabbing something off my bed. Scarlett shook her head slightly before going back to speaking to me, I was able to get a good look at her outfit when she'd glance away a bit. She wore grey flare pants and a grey hoodie.

After her talking to me for awhile, she left my bedroom and that's when Chris came in, going to be his possibly cocky self. He laid down on my bed, as I began to play on my pc. "Matt." I heard him say, wanting my attention. I turned my head over my shoulder for a split second, mumbling a 'what'. "You love her, don't you?" He spoke, I could tell from his tone he was smirking, heaps.