You hate school, not because of learning or because you are lazy, but because you feel invisible, you walk into, sit down quietly, people are talking, gossiping and laughing, sharing stories, or lies. But no one asked you anything, no one notices you if you are there or not. At lunch you sit with people, yet you still feel alone, of course, you try to join conversations, but it feels like you are getting ignored, or yours words turns into thin air. Sometimes you say something when no one is talking, but no one responds, but then someone else says the same thing, and everyone starts laughing. And everytime you start wondering if something is wrong with you, ans you slowly stop trying to make or join conversations. You also start raising your hand in class, you stop trying to talk in groups, you even stopped trying to make friends. Not because you dont want to, but because rejection in small moments every day slowly breaks your confidence. Your parents dont notice, your teachers don't notice, nor does your classmates. Because from the outside, everything is normal, you come to class, you smile like you do everytime, you still go home everyday. But inside, you feel like you don't belong anywhere, because everything for you starts to feel like a struggle. Tom and Bill gets bullied for looking like girls, even though Tom doesn't wear makeup, but Bill does, just black smudged eyeliner, they mostly ignore their bullys, and focuses on their band with Gustav and Georg. Tom and Bill seems to notice when you aren't at school, but het, somehow they never feel like they've seen you in school either, but they know you are in school.

You were quietly sitting in the back of the class, class hasn't started yet, your ikea alien plushy against your chest, because you feel safe with it, a hoodie over your head, hiding your face, you were focused on draw, as your classmates were at the front of the class, talking with each other.