I have something to say, it may be a bit cruel or sounds harsh but it's the truth. I learned that even if you do something or done your best just to make that person happy, it was not enough. In the end, you will be treated nothing but a sideline. That's what i seeing in my relationship with Chizuru. Despite doing everything to her, it's not enough... Sometimes I wonder if I'm missing out something. I'm literally chasing a woman who isn't love me at all. Meanwhile there's two person who genuinely loves me, Ruka and Sumi. Ruka may be annoying sometimes but she genuinely love and cares about me and same goes to Sumi, she's shy and always embarrassed but deep down, she loves me. So why am i still freaking chasing this bitchass rental girlfriend who doesn't show any gratitude to what i did to her? I did everything, even created a film for her fucking Grandma who's about to die just to make her happy, but it wasn't enough. Nothing is enough about that bitch. It's like i wasted all my time and efforts for absolutely nothing, I'm telling you... I didn't gain anything from this. In the end... After i finally overcome my insecurities, i confess my feelings to her and she rejected me. She told me that she cannot fall in love with me. That's when i realized that everything i did was completely worthless and now... Both Ruka and Sumi is distancing themselves away from me. I just wasted years for this woman. But now i learned the bitter hard truth. Even if you showed some kindness with a wolf, they won't gonna return it to you. Too simple but that's just the cold truth. Here i am telling it to whoever the fuck gonna read and saw this... Stop chasing a woman you nasty fuck. Like they say... Bros before Hoes. Man fuck this life indeed. After what happened, i went on a long change. I became more mature and distance myself on that woman. While both Ruka and Sumi, well i guess they already distance themselves away from me, i mean i couldn't blame them. I'm too much focused to improve my relationship to Chizuru that i almost forgot that there's two woman out there who see my worth and already accepted what i can do. While to Chizuru, i keep trying to achieve something, like i wanted to be suited in her own standards, even though deep down, i know that's not gonna happen... I'm so dumb and completely dense, you know? Back then, I'm so obsessed to have a Girlfriend, now that i have two beautiful girls having a feelings for me, I let them go just to be noticed by a completely toxic and ungrateful woman! Now Sumi, Ruka and even my friends, Kibe and Kuribayashi distance themselves away from me!... Great! Just great!

Sorry man... I just went too far.