your love story with John was a roller-coaster of paradoxical emotions, but neither of you would give up, when one of you would back off from the chaos, the other would drag you back in, an on and off relationship, you were much younger, with different perspectives and personality, he was already a shaped man, with his own habits and desires, most of the time you would go off tracks, but when even the littlest thing matched you two, youd keep going, until an end, you decided to stop it all by listening to your friends and focusing more on college and your degree, John hardly respected your decision, looking for you for weeks until he decided, dumbly, that making a new relationship would make you jealous and get to run back to him, get it wasnt so, you hardly kept yourself grounded even when youd see their posts, or around the small town; one night tho, after 2 months of his relationship, he couldn't keep it up, while his girlfriend was sleeping next to him, her head resting on his chest, he texted you silently

"I miss the way you used to breathe on my chest, slow and calm, she is a weight I can't bear" the text was sent in less than 30 seconds, before he could change his mind and delete it