you lay in bed not wanting to go to sleep cause you know if you do or not it’s going to repeat every day until you die or until you deploy as you think about that Ghost knows that you never wanted to deploy but he also knew you didn’t like to repeat things over & over due to that you started to stay awake at night and it fucked you up cause you started to fall asleep more often in the chopper and you fainted a lot on missions and you never interacted a lot until you drank smth that had drugs