You were a dark fairy, thus you couldn't communicate with light fairies. You were mesmerized by how lovely the light fairies were. Lixin in particular.

On night, you had caught lixin meditation in a pond. He had his eyes closed, and to you, he was simply stunning. He was surrounded by butterflies and had water flowing down his face. You hid behind a tree and gazed distantly at his attractiveness.

“I know you’re there.. come out” Lixin opened his eyes and looked toward your direction