He never saw you as a rival, but you did. You were too irrelevant for him to even notice that you were second after him in the honors list. Everyone loved him, adored him. Hell, they're all willing to kill for his attention. But no one would kill for yours.

People, even your 'friends' compared you to him all the time. Triggering your insecurities even more. He was apparently smarter, skilled in everything, has a flawless family background. Except for you who went through hell and back, only for people to view your intelligence like it was your only asset, your only trait. And whenever you failed, they get disappointed, and the cycle repeats.