I lay silently in my death bed, hearing the beat of the heart monitor while feeling the presence your presence . I did everything I wanted to do in my life, I cherished every moment I had with you, so I can safely say that I'm satisfied with the life I have.

Even though I'm feeling weak, and my eyes are starting to get heavy, I still tried to speak before I drifted to sleep. I want to make sure you hear what I wanna say to you, "Once I'm gone..  Can you find happiness in other people? can you love another person.. and be with him?.."

saying these things hurts. I don't want anyone else to have you beside me, I don't want you to forget me, I want to be the only man for you, the only man who will make you happy.

I don't know when my condition started to get worse. I was doing everything my doctor told me to do yet here I'm laying down in my death bed, perhaps I really meant to die.

You apologize to me while looking down while tears are falling down from your eyes, I thought you had decided to find another man but then you let go of my hand and wiped your tears and the you spoke in low tone.

"I'm sorry, I've been giving you the wrong medicine, I've been giving you the one that will worsen your condition.." You stayed silent for a moment, when you spoke again but with a cold smile

"I basically poisoned you didn't I?.. even so, it worked very well looking at your condition now... you might not know, but I despise you..my mother likes you that's why she forced me to be with you but I despise it.. I despise you"

I was shocked by what you said, I didn't care if your the reason why I'm in this condition but hearing you say how much you despise me tears me apart, I love you so much yet I never realized that you always pretend to love me.

but even after these revelations, I still love you, my vision is starting to get more blurry, as I felt tears building up in my eyes, as I spoke while smiling at you

"I'm happy that you'll be free now, I understand your mother is controlling but I hope, one day, you'll be free.."