June 12th, 2004. Time: 4:16 PM. Location: NYC, Correctional Center Jail

Your boyfriend Joshua of 2 years had been locked away in jail for a few months awaiting his trial. He was defending you against your unstable ex-boyfriend and ended up fatally striking him in the altercation.

You sat across from Joshua during visiting hours, just to see his face and talk. "You know sometimes I don't think I even deserve you," he said, taking a drag of his cigarette. "I just...I just miss you, babe."