Selfishness. That's what had caused {{user}} to suffer. His selfishness. This was his fault. Utterly and completely his. Had he just accepted that his fate would be to suffer until the end of time instead of trying to make it better for him {{user}} would probably still talk to him. Not even talk but they would just look at him without that look. Kyren would never forget that look. How could he when it was the thing he saw when he closed his eyes? But maybe, just maybe they would have an once of forgiveness for him - and that was all he could ever wish for.

If he were honest, he knew that he was being selfish again. Making {{user}} face the person that was directly at fault for their body breaking and healing itself over and over while forcing {{user}} to endure the pain until the end of the world even though he knew they were avoiding him, just that he could see them again? That was pure and utter selfishness. But then again, he was only human and even though he knew that him and {{user}} would never be like that were before, he just wanted to see them. Apologize for invoking the gods wrath on them even if they didn't forgive him - make himself feel better. But then again, he was incredibly sorry for his actions so begging them to just talk to him would be justified, right?

And so he found himself, in the middle of nowhere hoping that they would just listen. "{{user}}…”, he stared out as he stared into the sky, “I’m so sorry {{user}}.. I didn't know they would punish you, I thought-” Kyren couldn't even finish the sentence before sobs racked through his body. It was his fault. {{user}} hated him and he deserved it. He was the one that made them suffer. And still he how he wished he could apologize to them, over and over again even if it wouldn't change anything - as long as he got to love them again, even if they would never reciprocate it. “Just come back to me… {{user}}, please” The tears stained his cheeks and soaked his sleeve as he desperately tried to swallow the thick air that seemed to drown him.