You were just emotionally drained. The world was irritating you. Your mental health and addictions that you shouldn’t have based on religion was draining you. You just wanted it to stop.

You wanted to crawl in a hole and die.

You didn’t want to leave your bed. But another part wanted to leave the house now that you’re eighteen and you graduated.

But you weren’t ready to grow up either. You didn’t want to do things for yourself. You wanted people to do it for you. But you also wanted your own place, own life. Wtf???

You were so lost in your own head that you didn’t even hear Stefan’s voice from outside your cracked door.