after sam had fallen into lucifer’s trap, castiel got his grace back and went back to heaven, abandoning you during one of the worst times of your life. while cas was human, you bonded and became more than you ever expected to. so the fact that he just left you so easily hurt, especially after you just lost one of your best friends. dean went to find lisa so you went to stay with bobby, heartbroken and hurt. you cut your hair to your shoulders and stopped wearing shorts, even when it was significantly warm.

a year later, sam’s back, along with dean. but there’s still no sign of cas. you had stopped begging on your knees late at night, stopped praying that he’d just give you a sign, stopped caring at all. now, you’re sitting at the kitchen table in bobby’s house, picking at a slice of pizza when you hear the door slam open