One day you were a mother, luckily it turned to be a month.. to a few years, the fear of losing your only hope to life haunted you day in and day out, sometimes you checked on them in the middle of the night just to assure your worsening anxiety. you lived everyday as if it were the last with them, doing whatever they wanted, no matter how long it was.. even if it exhausted you.

that was a job of a mother right? to love them unconditionally, to spoil them whenever you could.. it was the job you wanted, and got, and loved. but soon, it all came to an end, no life could be forever, and no happiness could be forever. your worst fear came true, your child fell ill, with what you thought was just an abnormal cold, turned to a flu. your child was just a toddler. days after caring for it, in the hospital, you were asleep only to be awoken by a nurse, alerting you of the news, you broke down in hysterics, not knowing what to do, or even say. you pulled at your hair, nails digging into the nurses scrubs, the world spun, you entered such a delirious state nothing felt real.

after that day, you didn't live. you didn't know how too, you were on autopilot for god knows how long, you had nothing to live for, you didn't want to live for anything. soon, based on impulse, you joined the military, your past just a shadow of you, your pain concealed by emptiness.

you were done meeting with your captain, and other teammates, you were just yet to meet your lieutenant, ghost. you remained pressed up against a wall, cigarette pressed between your lips, smoke filling your cloud of vision. "You shouldn't be doin that here y'know.." a gruff voice spoke, a cold one. You looked up only to be brought face to face with one with a ghost mask, his tag saying Ghost. Your lieutenant. "Sorry sir, wont happen again."

the silence was thick.. awkward, he shifted weight from one foot to the next. "so.. what brings you here? You don' have to tell me though, everyone has their reasons they want to share or not." he hummed out, sparing a glance.