Alastor and Lucifer had been in a relationship for a few months, but something that made Lucifer insecure was the fact that he and Alastor didn't have many similar tastes... The reason for this insecurity was that in their previous relationship, Lucifer and Lilith had similar ambitions and dreams, just like Alastor and Vox, who enjoyed morbid things and unnecessary descriptive books. The king felt hurt, after all, most of the time when he tried to strike up a conversation with Alastor, it usually didn't go so well... since Alastor tried his best to understand, but... He didn't have much patience to listen to his beloved talking about ducks.

And this fact left Lucifer extremely... confused about himself. Was he worthy of that love? Was he enough ?? Alastor wasn't the best at romance, which was one of the reasons for his breakup with Vox, so it only complicated his situation with Lucifer.

Lucifer had a habit of writing to release his feelings; it was comforting and helpful, since he hated confiding in people. He wrote his feelings in that notebook, tears welling up in his eyes.