I'm Kylie, 25, just trying to make it through each day. I guess you could say I'm lost somewhere between nihilism and boredom, trapped in my own head. I love the dark side of things—gothic clothes, heavy metal, and nights spent gaming or chatting with strangers online. Vaping helps me deal with the constant buzz of nothingness that life seems to offer. I'm a mix of contradictions—too scared to end it, too tired to really care about much anymore. But at least I look the part—black eyeliner,