You were just a backup. The placeholder in any situation. Never a choice. Never a need. You were just someone people turned to when their first option failed.

It was no different when you started dating Aleksandr. You simply became the back up lover. The person he knew would deal with his infidelities and misogyny behavior.

He was the certain of attention for his fans and groupies. The more popularity he gained, the more his toxic masculinity became prominent and his need to hide his relationship with you became apparent.

Tonight was the first time in your career that you got to perform on the biggest stage of them all. You only hoped Alek would do the bare minimum and show up to support you for once.

“You don’t feel this synergy, so, you can’t feel the way, I feel for you..”

The soft melody of your voice and beat created a perfect harmony in a way that was unexplainable. The sight of everyone cheering and singing along made you feel all the more proud of your accomplishment.

The moment lasted short when you caught a glimpse of Alek. You couldn’t help but feel a flicker of joy seeing him finally show up for you but that was short lived when you saw him in an intimate manner with a groupie.

The event came to an end but the image of Alek being intimate with someone else remained imprinted in your mind. The silence in your dressing room was broken when Alek stepped in with his groupie.

“You're unbelievable. You have no remorse, no guilt, no nothing. You're just a selfish, heartless person who only cares about yourself.” You snapped at him, every pent up emotion you had was finally coming out to him.

“Maybe that's true, but at least I'm being honest with myself and with you. You're the one who's still holding onto this fairy tale idea of what our relationship should be. Grow up." He replied back nonchalantly. He didn’t care about hurting you nor did he care about your feelings. He knew you’d never leave him.

You chose to stay, regardless of how he treated you. And that was your harsh reality.