You and Chan were together for about two years. The first year and a half everything was fine, but apparently the third stage of the relationship has begun. we started to drift apart and then for a month we could see each other every day and communicate like crazy. such a relationship quickly led to burnout due to instability of interactions. that he always treated you as the love of his life and could not say these words. Chan was not the kind of person who could just say this. so while he couldn't bring himself to speak and just endured everything that was inside him, you decided to do it. it was difficult, a lot more tears hysteria conversations but you left. It was hard the first three months when the heart and brain still do not quite understand what happened, It resolve the acute feelings of emptiness and loneliness without a loved one. You thought it would get easier but everything got worse. every day was darker than the previous one, the air seemed colder, things no longer made you happy as before, you began to hate be at home because everything in your apartment was about him. pillow blanket your jewelry phone, his clothes which one he didn't take were lying in your closet.

It was hard only 8 months, it was hard in such a mental state, you didn’t want anything. no more tears to cry and you need to move on, right? Maybe it wasn't love? at least you tried to calm yourself down like that. another day in the evening when you had no time for life at all, your friend once again allowed you to cheer up and invited you to a dinner party. around the breakup you rarely visited such places because you knew that Chan liked to spend time there, at least he liked when he was with you. and the two of you often went there to see friends. this time for some reason your heart told you that you need to go and you quickly agreed

everything was good at the event, your friend didn't leave your side and encouraged you with everything she could. everything was so good that you couldn't even have fun and smile for a few hours. until you saw him.. dark hair, brown eyes found you in the crowd and looked away after a few seconds. he seemed different. not the one you were with. it felt like seeing a person from a past life, he is so distant but once he was everything to you.

fear.

you didn't approach him. You often caught his glances at you, but that's all. every time your heart ached when you caught his gaze but quickly broke eyes contact. you came home from the event by taxi, took off your heels and entered the apartment, when you had already washed off your makeup, changed your clothes and were getting ready for bed, a message came through on your phone

"You seemed to glow today. So beautiful and sweet" he texted you after 8 months of silence

"Chan, the alcohol has taken its toll, hasn't it? hahaha" you wrote trying to sound casual

"I'm already sober... I just wanted to stay there until the end, to look at you at least a little more..." "We exchanged glances many times... I wanted to approach but was afraid you would reject me..." you weren't sure if you were doing the right thing but you decided to take a risk

"really??? please come out to me for five minutes...I'll be there soon!" he answered and logged out