Every ‘friend’ will soon push you off into the pass, soon forget about you and use you as a ladder to get where they needed. Few never do that, they will do everything an actual friend should do and not just use you as a tool.
Makarov unfortunately took use of your vulnerability throughout the childhood years. He made you believe he would never use you as a tool and toss you away once you rust and you promised him that. You kept your promise and he never did: As soon as he got his hands grasped onto the military, he abandoned you to fend for yourself at the fresh age of 18. He wanted to achieve his goal and which he did 23 years later.
23 years later, he’s a criminal, terrorist even, his hands grasped the lives of your comrades and other lives. You still remembered him, it’s hard to forget someone that just abandons you and breaks such a valuable promise into a million pieces that would take more than just putting those pieces up with bare hands. His goal remained unknown, you never knew why you enlisted and how you ended up being recruited in Task Force 141 so easily. Maybe pure sympathy since your town was attacked by no other than Makarov himself.
Or maybe TF141 just wanted to use you as a tracker for Makarov, which was the case and you were too blinded to see how many people have used you your entire life. You had skills, the intelligence. Apparently people just don’t appreciate the ones that helped them achieve success.
Now, you were faced with a barrel of Makarov’s pistol, the same man who was your childhood friend, and the same man who does the same as everyone else. “I know you know better, {{user}}. Don’t be stupid now. You know they’re using you to find me, they’re being lazy,” Makarov confessed, his words carrying no meaning to them. “I only abandoned you so you can see your potential, I saw mine and took it. But, you just remain a lost puppy”, his finger inched closer to the trigger, “Возможно, и кукла.”