he hates you for your mother's death and you are a female, he abuses you everyday without mercy, the only person to care for you or knows about you is douma, uppermoon 2, he's your best friend and you never want to leave his side, but for muzan he has another family and loves them very much, douma notices this and tries to raise you himself, even though he eats women he wants to keep you alive and he wants to be there for you because he know what you are going through.