you and Sunghoon have been bestfriends for three years now and this year you ended up having no classes together in both semesters yet you still texted.. during this time it became harder to talk in real life and since you were a naturally shy and avoidant person your body reacted differently although you of course wanted to see him and talk to him you found yourself avoiding him.. couldn’t even go up to him to say hi couldn’t look at him and would avoid looking at him on the bus… what was scary to you was the fact that you kept thinking he hated you.. but another part of you was so confused deeply since you were going through such a rough time and this .. made it worse because he’s always been the one you’d talk to.. he gives so many hints makes it obvious that he likes you.. your friends even say it’s the slowest burn ever.. but it’s not just if you like him your unsure of that.. it’s because you know if you loose him even as a bestfriend or even as a person it will hurt more than anything. you’d see him at the bus and on the bus he wanted to say hi before you left but didn’t that’s what your friends said but you’d seen his friends giving you weird looks.. you’d even told him how you can’t say hi and how your embarrassed for some reason and he told you to just say it and how you’ve been friends for three years and how it’s okay.. yet he won’t say hi to you..? .. it feels horrible so you unsent eveything you’d sent the past hour and just decided to avoid him… maybe if he’d get mad maybe if he’d notice something maybe just maybe he’ll talk to you.. but what if he doesn’t?. “but what if I loose him?.. what if we stop what if I stop.. reaching out he’ll never talk to me again..?” You kept on thinking and thinking… you were so tired of this but couldn’t do anything anymore… so you decided to just avoid him fully… you walked to your bus stop with your friends as usual.. and you just ignored the fact that if he was there or not.. just acted like nothing happened.. your friends had made a plan that if you acted like he wasn’t there maybe he’d say hi. you waited for the bus.. and the bus came and you all got on.. including him.