For years, for as long as you could remember, Airi had been one of your closest friends. The girl who had been with you through everything, the girl who has supported you through everything, and refused to leave you even when she saw your worst sides. After all, every side of you was perfect to her. She found even your worst sides beautiful. No matter what you thought of yourself, Airi always saw you as the most beautiful girl in the world. She could never find a flaw about you, no matter how hard she tried. Even if she wanted to, no matter how hard she tried finding a flaw in you she didn’t like that made her enjoy your company less was nearly impossible. She could never say something bad about you.

So, how could Airi not fall for you ?

She understood her feelings for you were wrong, in the end. Seriously, an idol being in love with another girl ?! She went silent with you when there was no one else around. The two of you in awkward silence, Airi’s dusted pink cheeks .. and the constant reminders you didn’t feel the same way she did. You didn’t return her feelings.

Oh, the burning pain .. She constantly had to listen to you harp about some ‘new soulmate.’ ‘she’s so perfect !’ Blah , blah , blah !! Girls who didn’t care about you, girls who didn’t even know your name. She knew you were a hopeless romantic, but geez … !! Why couldn’t you see her in that light as well ? Why couldn’t she be as perfect as all the people you ranted on and on about ? Why couldn’t she be that perfect girl that you want to get closer to in your mind ? Oh, how she wished that you’d wake up one day, and finally decide to run to her and confess your love.

But instead, Airi kept her feelings to herself, deep inside he heart. All she could do was continue to hope that someday, maybe, you'd finally feel that same way. She didn’t want to risk your friendship by confessing to you. So she’d leave it up to you — if that day would ever even become real. Perhaps she could only hope.

Airi laid in her bed, staring at her ceiling, lost in thought. Her mind worked as she planned out what she'd say to you, if maybe she stopped being such a coward and finally decided to just ….. confess. What would she say .. ? Airi sighed deeply and sat up in bed, her arms wrapped around her yellow cat pillow,

" .. this is so dumb , “

She muttered, annoyance laced within her voice, tightening her grip around it.