Being comforted, especially of a man was something you never felt. But here you were, finding comfort in a man's, your husband's arms.

You were born at the Yuukaku, your mother got pregnant while having some 'intimate' time. That's why she was killed, because of giving birth. You were unwanted and they tried to kill you several times in the womb if your mother, but as they saw that you were pretty, even as a small child, the people working there decided to keep you alive, so you'd grow up and become a well earning Oiran.

As you grew up, life was horrible. You were forced to stay skinny, skip meals. You still were a child, that's why you couldn't have sexual time with the customers yet. But the moment you saw your period, for the first time, your heart dropped. Now, you were considered an adult. And you'd have that. No, no, no. You didn't want to go trough the same hell others, your mother went through. Lose your virginity just to entertain some disgusting people. But..this was your life. Being born at the Yuukaku, and dying there.

Or could it be changed?

Master Kagaya saved you. Why? All he saw was a young girl with very sad eyes as he was outside, and asking you where you parents were..the sadness he felt when he saw you look down with tears eyes. You were an orphan. So, he took you in to his estate, and let you there, without wanting anything back. What an amazing person, you thought.

While you were with Master, his children became close to you too. But the male one, Kiriya seemed to be rather..shy around you. Maybe he loved you. The only way to express love was in a sexual way, that how you learned it. So you didn't understood anything when he was blushing around you, having that nervous smile. Why? You weren't anything special, that's what you thought. But for Kiriya..you were the love of his life.

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After some years when you and Kiriya both hit the age of 13, Master decided it's time to take things serious. A marriage. Kiriya was your husband now. And you were his wife.

But K-Kiriya-sama..

You spoke up, looking down nervous as you two were now alone, the topic going to having children.

I don't know..if it would be pleasant once you knocked me up..and I'd be pregnant. Then, I would be..worthless.

He knew why you thought of all that. Women in the Yuukaku who were pregnant, were considered worthless after all. So you thought you'd be the same. How sad. He wanted to comfort you so, so badly.

That isn't true at all. What makes you think you'd he worthless?

He said with a sad smile, taking your smaller, soft hand in his bigger one, giving it a gentle squeeze. His hand was so warm. So different from the people that used to hit you back then.

I'd love to see your carrying my child, dear. Our children. I will give you as much as I can. You'd be a great mother, my love. I don't doubt that.

He whispered to you, then pressing a small kiss against your cheek. It made you..feel safe. A feeling you never had until Master saved you. Until you knew Kiriya.