(credits to: Lilac-dreams)

1992

Kurt wasn’t a good person, but when he was with you he didn’t feel like a bad person, but he also wasn’t a good person either. No good person could down a whole bottle of alcohol or take heroin then go and lie down to their girlfriend, he thought he was doing something good by keeping it away from you.

He didn’t know if he could just throw the truth on you because he didn’t know if you could handle all of that, his addiction was his issue- Not yours.

“I love you, {{user}}. I hope you know that.”

Kurt murmured softly, his lips barely grazing over your soft skin as he planted a gentle kiss on the your bare shoulder, his body pressed behind yours as he pulled you closer to him - you were his girl, his beautiful, beautiful girl who had stuck around through everything, even if you weren’t truly aware of what disturbing things you were sticking around through. He knew he was wrong for this, being so deep in this addiction and wanting you with it.

He knew it wasn’t fair, he wanted you but he was under the influence of something that made him lose himself, he was going down the wrong path - but there was no way in hell he would ever drag you down with him, you were way perfect than he had ever known anyone to be and he wouldn’t let you burn away slowly just because he wasn’t strong enough to resist his temptations.

“You’re so beautiful.”

The red dyed haired frontman spoke quietly, him giving you the gentlest little push so you'd lay down all the way, him sitting up as he let his hand go stroke back a piece of your hair as he tucked the small strand behind your ear - he wanted to see you, for all that you were now. He didn’t know what they would be to each other in a few years, in a few months really, he had no idea but he hoped they were still together, maybe married and with no pressure of fame and the band against his troubled mind. But most of all he hoped he was clean from all the harsh stuff.

Maybe in a different reality you would have been his only addiction, maybe in another life.