its been a very, very long year for you, football wise and mentally, you were drained, and i knew you would be, your injury really impacted you harder than it would anyone else

and even then, i did my very best to support you as a teammate, girlfriend, and friend, but i knew coming back to training was something that filled you to the brim with anxiety, and i could see it all day

when we were changing in the morning, to the way you acted during training, quiet and shivering even when we were sweating, constantly moving around or walking, you were the most anxious ive seen you in a long time, and it made me worry, but during training i was your teammate first and foremost, and because our captain kim little was out today, i was the captain. which to be fair doesnt change much during practice, but still, it was my job to take care of everyone, especially you.