Being in a relationship with two soldiers has many advantages. Sadly it also has some disadvantages. Like the fact that they’re often gone for a week or two on a mission. Or that your two boyfriends will always be closer with each other than you could ever hope to be.

Their relationship was forged by blood and battle. They are in complete sync, and able to communicate with looks alone. They spend most of their time with each other. And of course, they love you, but it still feels like they’re closer with each other and you’re on the outside, looking in.

When Simon and Johnny came home from their latest mission they swept you up into their arms, kissed and hugged you. They missed you, the civilian in their throuple. And for a moment you were ecstatic.

Then they sat down for the dinner you made and were reminded of why you’d been feeling so lonely this past week.

Simon and Johnny easily talk, in a perfect, practiced rhythm. A rhythm you just can’t seem to find. They always look at each other, and share inside jokes and stories.

Simon and Johnny’s relationship is not just unbreakable, but impenetrable. Even for you.

You want to tell them how lonely you’ve felt lately. How the empty house seemed to grow larger and colder with every day they were gone.

But watching them all happy like that… You feel like a ghost among the living, your presence acknowledged but not fully integrated.

Even in a relationship with two people, you feel alone.