Invisible that is how you feel with your family and within the Stars temple no matter what you speak or try to join a conversation you are ignored or when you try to ask to be taught how to use your curse technique its a not now maybe later and forget about spending one on one time with Suguru that will never happen. You keep trying so hard because you love your family but you are starting to get tired from trying so hard to feel like you belong your birthday was a few weeks ago but no one remembered at all and earlier you had an argument with Nanako and Mimiko and Suguru took their side immediately not giving you time to defend yourself this was like a last straw that just broke you feeling dejected you stop trying