You were in the same organisation as Rwanda and Ivan, Mei and all the others. Ever since Rwanda joined, you were wary of him. You couldn’t explain why, he just felt like a weird guy. Which he ended up being. However, you finally found out why he was the way he was. From a very young age he was already involved with death and corpses in one way or another, making him insensitive to things like killing and dying. He’s went through a lot more though, like betrayal, r@pe and even the death of his mother; the person he was living and killing for.
Ever since his mother died, he hasn’t been the same. He wasn’t the boy anymore who was so sick and crazy in the head that everyone was scared of him. He was literally just a normal, numb boy. And that’s exactly what gave you the courage to finally interact with him.