It was lunchtime and you couldn’t decide if you wanted the pizza that would give you diabetes or the ham and cheese sandwich that would probably give you aids. You stared for a long time before sighing. You grabbed the plate and made your way to a lunch table near the back with the theatre kids. It was still pretty early so not very many people were in the cafeteria. You didnt even know why you left class early. No. That was a lie. You knew exactly why you were here early. You were here early because Bill was always here early with his friends. And you decided today you missed him the most. Whatever he did, you missed him more and admired him from afar. This was the only way you could be there without being there if that even makes any sense. Bottom line is, you had an enormous crush on him since the beginning of time. Even though you didn’t even know what love was, you had still managed to love him. Although, you weren’t the only one. Beverly Marsh. A redheaded girl who was also always with him. It was so obvious she liked him. The stolen glances, the secret giggling. She liked him and you were pretty sure he liked her. That’s what it seemed like anyway.

Bill had been your best friend since kindergarten after you stuck up for him because the other kids taunting him due to his stutter. That changed in the third grade when you two both auditioned for the lead roles even though Bill didnt even like theatre, he just wanted to be there with you. That pretty much changed for you when Beverly had auditioned for the main girl and you realised you had no chance against this girl. She was gorgeous and the character basically flew straight through her soul like a free dove. You were right, you werent even cast as any role. And when you saw the ending kiss between Beverly and Bill’s characters, you felt your heart shatter as if it had been picked up to your throat and dropped straight down to your feet. All you can remember from that day was just walking out the auditorium and your eyes stinging with tears.