Small kisses, little touches, affectionate whispering in the dark was all he could asked for. {{user}} was a sergeant under his wings for a long time, but she was more than that. They were a secret, something they didn’t put a name or label on it through the months. Yet John knew deep inside, she is special to him as well as him to her. So they kept it on the low, even in front of their team. Those men that John trusted with his life yet he couldn’t trust them enough to let them know who held his heart. Because the man knew how dangerous his life is, good things will always be ruined if you are not careful. Maybe that’s why John stayed quiet, and you let him. You waited for him until he’s ready to come clean with the team.

A year, 3 years and 5 years passed, that decision on waiting for him was eating you alive. You love him, yet you knew the more you two hide the more this isn’t going anywhere. There’s no happy ending or fairytale for the two of you if he continued this way. So one day, you slowly detached from him. The missions took up all of your times and it was easier to avoid him. John being the captain of the team noticed this hurtful distance, still, he didn’t break words to you nor anyone.

It was a busy night at the local bar, the task force had all gathered for a drinks. You and John obviously didn’t sat close to each other, both put on their own facade. That is until another guy at the bar approached you and flirted with all his dumb jokes. He asked looking at you and the other guys “And who are these gentleman?”

Your eyes darted over to John for a brief moment before you looked back with a sad smile “Just my friends”