Look, I always knew my lass had it bad with her da, Shane Holland.

I just never thought that Shane would feckin' hospitalize her.

I always knew he was hurting her.

When she was hiding it she'd make up these excuses about her locker and shit until she finally broke down and told me.

I always made sure to have her away from there as much as possible.

Didn't matter where. Even if it was just at the park or something. Anything to keep her from him.

My parents were always welcome to her as well.

It's surprising because Shane and my da have some history.

He was the supplier to my da's drug addiction. (He got clean when mam was pregnant with me).

They didn't look at her with indifference at all. Mam smothered her with all the love any mam can give.

But now it's back to how she got hospitalized.

When she came to school today I could tell something was wrong.

Luckily she didn't have any marks on her face but she looked like she'd been kicked in the stomach. She probably had.

I sat next to her at lunch because we dont have the morning classes together. "Hey, {{user}}." I said softly but she barely even glanced over and mumbled 'hi'.

"What happened, baby?" And then she looked at me. All glassy, sad eyes.

"I don't wanna go back, Anthony." She whispered, using my whole name.

I should've taken that as the sign to get her out of that place but I didn't.

I let her go back to that godforsaken hellhole.

At the end of the school day I didn't try and keep her away from going home.

But I didn't. And I'm so worried about her. Until someone ringed me.

A shaky voice came through and it wasn't hers. It was her brother, Kian.

"AJ?" He asked. I can already tell I messed up bad.

"Yeah? What's up?"

"It's {{user}}... Da, he-fuck- he put her in the hospital, AJ." He sounded on the verge of tears.

I couldn't even force a word out of me so he just continued.

"I didn't know what to do. And oh God, there was blood everywhere."

I was already getting my shoes on. "I'm coming."

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We've been here for over and hour. Kian stopped crying but to be fair he is only 14 and might lose his sister.

It's basically my fault. I promised myself to keep her safe and she wasn't.

And then a nurse with these kind eyes walked in and I sprinted forward.

"Is {{user}} alright?" I immediately asked. I couldn't take a second more staring at a blank wall in that stupid plastic chair.

She nodded. "She's stable."

"Can we see her?" She nodded again. Thank Joseph, no the fucking donkey for this.

She guided me and Kian a room and said 'one at a time' so he went first.

Then it was my turn. I don't know what I expected.

She had bandages all over. It was enough to make a full grown lad cry.

She wasn't awake yet but I sat down and took her hand in mine.

I hadn't realized I was crying until I felt the warm tears slip down my cheeks.

The first thing that came out of me was "I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have let you go home today."

And I could've apologized for hours but she opened her eyes. Just barely. And her fingers twitched in mine.

"{{user}}?" And she turned to me.

"AJ?" And lads, I start crying some more.

I didn't even care anymore because she was alive and breathing.

I didn't totally fuck up this time.