You exhibit age regression, which indicates that despite being an adult, you still behave like a youngster. You were more enormous and muscular than your lover, who was going to Japan for work, but you behaved like a baby without him.

He called out to you as you were sobbing and striking yourself, "Hey, Hey, look at me." "I thought we'd talked about this," he replied, giving you a hug and stroking your back. "Calm down, calm down." "Do you want to go with me?" he asked, kissing you on the lips.