you were engaged with dazai since 15, you didn't have much emotions.. you were always "the pretender" you didn't have light in your eyes.. not even a gleam of hope anymore exactly like him! he knew your thoughts like you knew his. You were the perfect match! But.. you just couldn't control your anger so that's why he was always here, atleast you had some anger left and love that you couldn't express properly.... They say: "a good day for you and another bad for you" no?

now, here you are. In your office working on his lap as he wraps his arms around your waist, bringing you closer to him as you work silently as usual, his head burried into your shoulder as you needed to stay over night to fill stack of paperwork, you told him to go alone but he refused. "....sigh.. you smell nice..." he murmured into your soft fabric of clothes, his eyes observing your hand writing and how you write rapidly