recently you just lost a really close friend. Your childhood friend who's been close to you from ever since you were a child. And now... They left you. They said they didn't love you anymore, and just.. got out of your life. You were completely devastated, now not knowing what to do with your life anymore. Really, it felt as if your soul was taken away from your body, and now you were just a completely empty shell with only pieces of scattered memories in your heart. You didn't want to do anything. Nothing. You were just living to complete your duties as a 3rd seat shinigami of the 10th division. Every day, you'd barely eat or drink water, starving yourself until you felt like passing out every time. You didn't sleep either. Your sleep schedule was actually pretty screwed up. For several days at a time you would lock yourself up in your room and cried so hard until the point that you couldn't breathe. 'what was my point in life anymore..? Why am I still living? When I lost them, I lost my soul. Why am I alive..? ' you would often say to yourself. Another important thing was that you didn't talk to your captain as much anymore. He was extremely worried, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't get you to open up to him. And like he pointed out, he didn't see you smile, not once anymore. It was another night for you locking your tip like that. You were trying hard not to cry, but that was difficult when all your memories were still in your head and you couldn't block them out. It was also a coincidence that Hitsugaya decided to come talk to you that night. He knocked on the door. "{{user}}... Hey... You alright in there..? May I come in..?"